Miss Independent

Keira has been growing up like crazy. She wants to do everything herself. feed herself, wash her own hair, throw away her own diapers, (by the way she will throw a fit if i try to do it for her.) and she also LOVES to brush her own teeth. Of course I brush them for her after to make sure they are nice and clean. She is also finally starting to say more words. I was starting to feel like a bad parent. But it amazes me how fast she picks up things. I cant believe how much she is observing things around her. The other week she was at my parents and they bought her a barbie to play with when she is over there. The first thing she did was get the barbies baby and then had mommy barbie breast feed the baby barbie... REALLY? I don't give her enough credit to how much she really understands. I just LOVE LOVE LOVE that little girl. but man She is SUCH a handful lately. The whole new baby thing isn't working out for her to well anymore. She hates that mommy's (yes she finally calls me mommy now!) attention always is taken up with the new baby. She loves talking to baby and kissing baby as long as im not holding him. once i pick him up she is NOT happy. poor keira.. really breaks my heart to see her so heart broken with this new change in her life. makes me think of all the changes she will go through.. and i will be right there going through them with her. ugh... already stresses me out. Well here are some photos of my little Miss Independent Keira!!!

favorite pics from lately..

this blog post is going to be full of random stuff.. just a warning.

Keira takes a nap..





My little thumb sucker.










Marley's Gourmet sliders









Love this smile



Keira wants to be the baby again.



Jazz Game!!!!





Keira naps at the library while i read... :)





what cute nappers.. uh starting to look like all we do is nap.



Keira and her 4wheeler from christmas.



Joe and Karoline get married!!!!! <3



and i reached my goal this week.. next week 7 miles.

doing the dishes

Keira always cries for me to pick her up while i do the dishes so she can play with the bubbles. So i filled the sink with water and bubbles and put a couple measuring cups for her to play with.. She LOVED it!!!

New Hair

I went and had my hair done yesterday..And boy was it needed!!! I went to this place in Provo called Shep Salon. It was such a nice salon! It was also a really nice break.. I have been wanting this for a really long time, but didn't just want any hair cut and color. You can't go wrong with Shep Salon, especially when Patrick is your stylist. He was great! anyways 4 hours, 170 dollars (ouch), and one very engorged mamma later this is what i got!


So I kinda look a little Gothic in this picture, but this is just a before picture i took before running out the door. haha



And this is the end result! We put copper in it.. You can't really see it though in the picture its kinda hiding.

PUSHING...


PUSHING A LITTLE HARDER...


STILL PUSHING...


THERE YA GO..


FEELING GOOOOOOD!


UHHHHH...


WHATS SO FUNNY?

measuring up

so i usually don't post about my feelings... but for some reason I'm feeling a little overwhelmed with them.. :0 yes i already know this is the last thing you wanna do when your feeling emotional, BUT.. im doing it. ;) okay so here are my feelings.. two babies are hard, postpartum is ugly, I suck at keeping my apartment in perfect order, I'm NOT a good cook, Keira still doesn't know I'm mama, I haven't showered for two days, I'm not very smart, I have no friends, I hate making friends.. and I haven't brushed my teeth today! I could keep going, but I don't want to sounds to negative! But lately all these things have made me feel like such a failure. Yes this is how i feel, but i know its not true. Someone that i really look up to explained how Satan tells us so many lies to make us feel inadequate. and I fall for it sometimes, all the time actually. I think a lot of us do. I wish I could be stronger in a lot of aspects of my life. The thing that matters really is that I'm trying... and if I'm not happy with where I am then i need to try harder. That doesn't mean I failed or I'm failing, just that i can do better. I have been so very very blessed in my life with an amazing husband and kids. I want to be my best for them. So as part as my new years resolution I'm going to be a better me. I'm going to reach out to to others, I'm going to make dinner 3 nights a week (even if its gross). I'm going to write in my journal more, read the book of Mormon for the first time, and of course lose 20 lbs. I'm excited for this next year... kinda nervous of what it will bring. 2008 got married, 2009 had Keira, 2010 had Lincoln, 2011...? who knows. :)

I love the holidays!!!!!

BEST Christmas yet!!!! We had such a good Christmas with our 2 new additions. (Joshua and Lincoln) It felt so complete. We spent Christmas Eve at our place. After the babies were sleeping me and Barry wrapped our last minute gifts ate a box of chocolates together from hatch family chocolate (known of the LITTLE CHOCOLATIERS off of TLC.) Thanks to Karoline we have a new favorite place here in utah! best hot chocolate ever.. and chocolates.. anyways! We woke up nice and early for keira to open gifts. Then went to nannys to open all the grandkids stockings.