doing the dishes

Keira always cries for me to pick her up while i do the dishes so she can play with the bubbles. So i filled the sink with water and bubbles and put a couple measuring cups for her to play with.. She LOVED it!!!

New Hair

I went and had my hair done yesterday..And boy was it needed!!! I went to this place in Provo called Shep Salon. It was such a nice salon! It was also a really nice break.. I have been wanting this for a really long time, but didn't just want any hair cut and color. You can't go wrong with Shep Salon, especially when Patrick is your stylist. He was great! anyways 4 hours, 170 dollars (ouch), and one very engorged mamma later this is what i got!


So I kinda look a little Gothic in this picture, but this is just a before picture i took before running out the door. haha



And this is the end result! We put copper in it.. You can't really see it though in the picture its kinda hiding.

PUSHING...


PUSHING A LITTLE HARDER...


STILL PUSHING...


THERE YA GO..


FEELING GOOOOOOD!


UHHHHH...


WHATS SO FUNNY?

measuring up

so i usually don't post about my feelings... but for some reason I'm feeling a little overwhelmed with them.. :0 yes i already know this is the last thing you wanna do when your feeling emotional, BUT.. im doing it. ;) okay so here are my feelings.. two babies are hard, postpartum is ugly, I suck at keeping my apartment in perfect order, I'm NOT a good cook, Keira still doesn't know I'm mama, I haven't showered for two days, I'm not very smart, I have no friends, I hate making friends.. and I haven't brushed my teeth today! I could keep going, but I don't want to sounds to negative! But lately all these things have made me feel like such a failure. Yes this is how i feel, but i know its not true. Someone that i really look up to explained how Satan tells us so many lies to make us feel inadequate. and I fall for it sometimes, all the time actually. I think a lot of us do. I wish I could be stronger in a lot of aspects of my life. The thing that matters really is that I'm trying... and if I'm not happy with where I am then i need to try harder. That doesn't mean I failed or I'm failing, just that i can do better. I have been so very very blessed in my life with an amazing husband and kids. I want to be my best for them. So as part as my new years resolution I'm going to be a better me. I'm going to reach out to to others, I'm going to make dinner 3 nights a week (even if its gross). I'm going to write in my journal more, read the book of Mormon for the first time, and of course lose 20 lbs. I'm excited for this next year... kinda nervous of what it will bring. 2008 got married, 2009 had Keira, 2010 had Lincoln, 2011...? who knows. :)

I love the holidays!!!!!

BEST Christmas yet!!!! We had such a good Christmas with our 2 new additions. (Joshua and Lincoln) It felt so complete. We spent Christmas Eve at our place. After the babies were sleeping me and Barry wrapped our last minute gifts ate a box of chocolates together from hatch family chocolate (known of the LITTLE CHOCOLATIERS off of TLC.) Thanks to Karoline we have a new favorite place here in utah! best hot chocolate ever.. and chocolates.. anyways! We woke up nice and early for keira to open gifts. Then went to nannys to open all the grandkids stockings.

Baby #2 is here!

Okay so Lincoln has arrived! he was born dec 7th at 8:00 6 lbs 7 oz. He is such a precious little thing. I feel sooooo unbelievably blessed in my life. I can't help but feel like the Lord has directed and blessed my life so much since marrying my most amazing husband. Sometimes i feel like i don't really deserve to have such a blessed life. I'm so grateful to my Heavenly Father and the obvious love he has for me. life just keeps getting better and better. I had no idea what a void i had in my life until i Married Barry. He filled me so much... Then along came my little Keira. I didn't think life could get better than what it was, and now Lincoln!!! wow. My heart is so full with love for life and my family. I'm not going to say that everyday is just a bliss though.. having 2 babies with 2 very different needs. Both of which are still in diapers is HARD!!! man.. even with the full help of my husband with him being on Christmas break i still feel so overwhelmed at times. I change diapers all day! ha and if im not doing that I'm stuck on the couch nursing. AND if im not doing that I'm constantly picking up after keira! oh man im tired. But i LOVE my babies. This is more than worth it. okay im done writing about my feelings. Here are picture updates!


Day before Lincoln arrived. Our last photo as a family of 3.


First time getting to see Lincoln after the surgery.


Me and my babies.. can you tell I'm drugged? I could barely keep my eyes open for any of the pictures.


Shinade and Lincoln


haha My EXTREMELY swollen feet! This is what happens to you when you get 10 bags of fluid pumped into you!


Lincoln Barry Engelbrecht


My sweet baby boy.


Bundled up before going over to nannys house!


Little Elvis.. look at those sideburns!


what a cute baby!!!!


Our first picture as a family of four... Merry Christmas!!!

its time...

so its about 10:00pm and its all starting to sink in. Baby Lincoln will be here tomorrow morning.. today was Keiras last day of being the only child. Im nervous, excited, scared, i have no idea how i feel. I just know I cant believe how fast time has been going. I feel like its always against you and NEVER for you. All i have been trying to do is slow down time with keira and this pregnancy to soak it all in.. i feel like I'm skidding my heels against time but there's just no slowing it down or pausing it. Especially when life is at its best. I feel like I'm trying to take every moment in, but Its all going by to fast. Well I'm excited to meet my little boy tomorrow... :)